Feelingzzzz

Speaking of Zzzz's, I can't sleep! Staying up late has become new to me since the break started, at sa lagay na to feeling ko puyat ako kahit hindi.

I'm putting the blame on these two "feelings":

I actually feel sorta-kinda-heartbroken *elk* makes me cringe at how carelessly I'll be using that word for this post. See, I've been crushing on this person for quite sometime. I think it was around first sem of second year when it started, but he was just that..."A secret crush" (whom I also secretly want to be introduced to, as corny and desperate as it may sound). We haven't met-met yet, I just see him around our campus once in a while, that's it.

         Just my luck, though, I saw him talking to a friend one time. They were about three feet away from me, (so deep inside kilig kilig naman ako, ganyan) pero sa isip ko bakit bagay sila :( huhuhu. Parang kinikilig din ako for them <--- Seryoso yan, walang echos. But blinded by my adoration for the guy, I brushed that petty feeling off, malisyoso lang siguro ako masyado. Hehe. But (ulit) just a while ago, I saw a picture of them together, and as devastating as it is for me BAGAY TALAGA SILA. huhuhu So yun, dun nagtatapos ang love story namin. Hahaha di man lang nagsimula eh no. Okay, I'm willing to let go naman eh. Nasaktan lang talaga ako HAHAHA YUCK DI KO AKALAING SASABIHIN KO YAN EVER. Moving on~~

The second reason is that I'm happy. Or at least trying to be.

I was loitering inside Fully Booked yesterday, and I saw a book entitled Book of Awesome (Ohkayyy ang daming "book" hahaha). Curious to see what it was about, I skimmed through the intro. Well it was basically about the author wanting to focus on the good side of life. He made it a point to write at least one awesome thing that happened to his day, compiled it, and made it to a book! Now thaaat's awesome! Naisip ko lang, for today I have three:

1. I was showered with kisses by my ever-so sweet sister ALL MORNING. As in no kidding, puro laway mukha ko. Hahaha (It's a different story when nighttime came, I had the opposite by then. Nonetheless, I still survived as baby-sitter for the day FYI)
2. I can now sweep my then-full bangs to the side! Yayyy
3. I started reading the local book that I randomly snagged a couple months back (for only Php45, mind you!) and discovered this...

   

Oha! Ang galing diba? Gusto kong ipahiram yung book, promise. (Slightly scared to, sadly. Wala pa kasing nagbabalik sa mga humiram sa akin, so... ) I'm at awe with how her words tend to paint an intricate picture of the characters in my head. I also love how all ten short stories are open-ended, parang bitin na hindi. Pero sobrang relatable 'cause the setting is in the Philippines, although ibang generation lang. Basahin niyo promise :)